Case with Arase-san...71 years old

At the time of World War II, my parents got divorced, and I was taken to Kumamoto with my mother. Soon after, she died of TB, then I was put into a child-welfare facility----the time there were many war orphans. Though I was young, I remember I found myself envious for those kids to be taken by foster-parents. At age five, I was adopted by my foster-mother, who was 25 years old, but she wasn't married. This may not be appropriate to say, but I clearly remember I tried to be overindulgent with the mother as if a dog tried to be attached to his/her master. Furthermore, naturally I demanded my naughtiness. When I lost my temper, I used to be defiant to say... " I didn't ask anybody for my birth" or "Why don't you abandon me". When I come to think of it, those defiants words can be heard among regular kids, can't they ?  Conversely, kids say it as they trust parents in their mind that they won't do that. It's not particularly found only among foster-kids. My foster-mother didn't take my behavir oversensitively, and she took it generously like  "Well, Ok, Understood...." She knew I didn't mean it, and at the same time I knew she would take it nicely. My foster-mother used to say to me " You are the holy blessing"... I never suspected her love.

She was vert strict, especially in disipline. When I switch on/off on an electric fan by the toe, she got angry like a ogre. There were often times that I was spanked. I forgot  what I was scolded for, but her fearful face remains well in my memories.