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26歳で結婚する時、新居を借りるため に住民票が必要になり、初めて自分で住民票をとりました。
そこに記載されていた続柄が「養女」。
その時、
そこに記載されていた続柄が「養女」。
その時、
一方で、納得してほっとしたのも本心です。
というのも、幼い頃から、
私はけして疎外されていた訳でも、
私はけして疎外されていた訳でも、
でも、私は甘えきれなかったし、ワガママを言えなかった。
実の父は、養子縁組後間も無く亡くなったそうです。
兄弟も5人いるはずですが、会った事はありません。
養父母は、出来れば死ぬまで事実を隠していたかったそうです。
告知する時の養父母は、本当に辛そうでした。
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When I was about to get married at age of 26, I needed a certificate of residence in order to rent a new home. It was my first time to obtain it by myself. I
found my relation was recorded as "an adopted girl".That was my first time in life to find my parents being not my biological parents. It was a tremendous shock to me.
Simultaneously, to tell you the truth, I was partly relieved from a burden.
Why? because I felt alienated indescribably from them ever since I was very young.
Well, it was nothing to do with any estrangement or I wasn't loved by them. Conversely, I believe I was treasured so much by them, and I would say it was an ultimate level of loving act toward me that no one can ever excced it.
Well, it was nothing to do with any estrangement or I wasn't loved by them. Conversely, I believe I was treasured so much by them, and I would say it was an ultimate level of loving act toward me that no one can ever excced it.
On the contrary, in my mid, I was inhibited for a total surrender to their love and didn't feel pampered. I came to know that's what the
estrangement had been all about, which made me convinced of the fact first time in my life.
I heard my biological father died all too soon after my adoptive-parent/adopted child matching was completed. It seemed that I was taken to his funeral
service, but I don't remember as I was too young then to keep it in my memory.I understand there are 5 brothers, but I never met them.
My adoptive parents say they wanted to hide the fact of me being aadopted-girl up to their dealth, if all at possible. In reality, it's a matter of
course that they can't hide forever. Soon after I got married, the real brothers had to come to my place as they sent me a request of renouncement of succession in advance. There
was no choice left for my adoptive-parents but to tell me the truth. I did feel them going through the deep suffering of this announcement to
me.